I miss you both terribly. Today I can't help but want to run away from certain people. I'm getting sick and tired of dealing with people's bullshit.
I hate to say it but I can't be his friend anymore. I love him to death, but i just can't understand him and he is really hurting me at the moment. I feel like every time he gets me alone he has to remind me that he knows i'm happy but my head is up Brandon's ass.
And guys I know it is... But I can't help it I have never been this happy before. In these last months I have had a shit ton of fun and our summer together was AMAZING!!!! But towards the end after everything had happened I started getting lonely and you both know that. But I feel like I want to tell you both this...When I met Brandon I just was going through this weird phase and I didn't know what I was doing I was lost and I feel like I was doing a lot of things for the wrong reason even though I don't regret those things I still know what really motivated me you know...
Now guys things are totally different for me. I have never been this happy with myself. I have a plan I am totally crazy for this amazing boy. And I'm not really going to be sorry for anything. I feel like it is finally my turn to be selfish and think about myself before others. I love him guys I can't help it. And I'm not going to sacrifice what I have with him for anything. I just really care about him I don't know this is different guys and i have been wanting to tell you both all of this for so long.
I know we haven't been together for a long time but this is so different. I'm being so lame right now to haha
Sorry I put on Adele and that's what came out! Right on! I love you both very much! (:
-Chelsey
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